will i ever be good enough?

will life ever be not so tough?

i want to be done trying.

inside i’m dying.

i can’t do this anymore.

what i want is behind a locked door.

im searching with no results.

like im looking for a compliment in a box of insults.

i feel so lost and out of control.

part of me is gone. i will never be whole.

everyone took their own little peice of me.

but they couldnt see

all the pain and sorrow

that i wished so hard to be gone tomorrow.

i can no longer explain the way i feel.

it all seems so real.

i wonder if anybody understands.

i wonder if anybody actually can.

stuck in a hole. too deep to climb out.

nobody ca hear me, no matter how loud i shout.

im not sure how to get back.

it must be something i lack.

theres always something missing.

what i dont have keeps me from winning.

will any of this ever end?

i dont know how much more i can mend..