scared of relapse
my emotions scare me.
anything but happiness is a threat.
I know this feeling all too well.
I can feel my past inside me;
when I WASN’T okay.
I can feel the EMPTINESS.
and the loneliness.
I was so broken.
too broken to ever put back together.
the memories still lurk behind to taunt me.
memories are too vivid.
they’re so.. real.
I don’t want to live this over again.
I can’t fall apart again.
it scares me to think about it.
I don’t want to be anything but happy.
the rest scares me.
brokenness is suffocating.
and my heart can’t handle that again..
1/26/12
